I had my first* hormonal blowout today.
In all fairness, I haven’t cried or really vented about anything that has happened since my ex boyfriend lost his fucking mind and more importantly, since I found out I was pregnant.
The day started out crappy as hell and it just…got worse and I figured that I just needed to eat my burrito and things would get better. The next thing I remember is crying hysterically and turning to my friend screaming “Theres no guacamole in my burrito!” I vaguely remember blubbering something about broccoli and retardation.
And then one of my guy friends showed up in the peak of my hysteria and I said, no, yelled that if he said one word to me I was going to punch him in the fucking face and as I walked by him I screamed something about penises being stupid and that he was an asshole. Something about boys always saying the wrong thing and what is the point of them having a brain if they’re not going to use it because you don’t need a frontal lobe to breathe…and that’s all they’re good for. Basically LOTS of man hating.
I’m not used to having close to no control of my emotions and it feels like I’m walking on eggshells in my own mind. Love the movie, but watching what to expect when you’re expecting was a MISTAKE. I have a bald spot forming from the trich and I really feel like punching someone in the face would be very therapeutic.
*the keyword in that sentence is first because it WILL NOT be the last…not by a fucking long shot…